SzE’s spaghetti Blog-nese

Retrospective.
I’ve been thinkin bout the few times where i woke up early in the morning..and drove my old car to pj/1 utama area..listening to incubus’ "warning".."echo".."are you in"".."aqueous transmission"..the roads’d be empty (after the morning rush hour)..and the malls were empty too..and the sky was blue..cloudless..and it’s a hot day…. and it feels like heaven now.

Realization.
Ever since i started workin..i’ve come to realize tht the things tht matter most to me..and the things tht i really enjoy doing are infact the things tht i got so bored of doing..last year. Tht is to say..i enjoy doing nuthing..ah..simple pleasure. And i enjoy just listening to nice.."chill" music. I miss the days when i was a full time student..sure i was broke..but then doing nuthing seems fun at this moment  =)
Incubus’ "a crow left of the murder" is a very good album.

Revelation.
I’ve come to think tht relationships can be so fragile at times..and unpredictable..tht at times it’s better to be selfish..and to depend more on oneself emotionally. Well atleast you know you can trust yourself.

Homesick.
I enjoy going back to kl..i miss the place..despite the jam and the crime rate..because it’s home…and home is just where my heart is.
And then there’s my comfy bed. And my messy room. And so i’ll be home atleast once a month.

A new year calls for new resolutions:

1)  Get a job..and be financially independent.
2)  Cut my hair short..so tht i dun really have to style it when i wake up.
3)  Tidy up my room tht’s been messy since pre-Dec acca.
4)  Gain some weight. Exercise and be healthy.
5)  Spend more time playin with tha dog.
6)  Stop doing things tht are unproductive.
7)  See the world a ‘lil bit more.
8)  Get a waist belt (for 1#).
9)  Pass the remaining acca paper(s) (probably have to take them/it again in June)

erm..i cant think of any other..1# shud be done in a few months - at most. 2# will be done this or next week. 3# is always a work in progress anyway..and will be added to "Resolution 2008". 4# requires determination..workin on it. 5# depends on free time. 6# (does this count?) 7# requires abit of 1# and also more free time..they loathe each other. 8# argh..wait lar for sales. 9# ok..June is the target!

2006 passed real quickly for me. The 2nd half of it was essentially chill-time up to Nov..argh..shud’ve "kau tim-ed" acca in Dec..(what have I done?….or not been doin?? )

Two days, or so, ago i had this dream..a nightmare. i remember i was crawling through dark corridors holding a big piece of cloth (i do not know why was i holding that piece of cloth).  And i was just pushing myself at times with my legs..and sliding on the cloth. Then i got out to a bright hall..like those in the game "The Painkiller"..with railway tracks..must be a train station..or a train ‘garage’. i turned right..and continued til i reached two train carriages put side-by-side. Then a man came out..a uniform-clad man..must be a soldier..he walked swiftly towards me and there was another person beside me to my right..i was lookin at the floor..the soldier pulled out two handguns..pointing one each at the back of our heads..it was at this moment that i realized i was going to be executed(!) i can feel the coldness of the gun metal..the feeling was so intense that i felt numbness at the point of contact ..it felt so real in the dream..i shouted "WAIT!!.." but there was no response..when he pulled the trigger..and right before the gun fired..i jumped up from my bed..it’s already late in the afternoon..and i was dreamin..what a way to wake up!! wheewww!!..
=)

This isn’t the appropriate time to blog..well i should say this IS NOT the right time to blog - full stop. But funny me..my brain always wants to spit something out early in the morning..(when i am nocturnal again! Yes.. Cant help.. tried studyin when the ’sun is shining’..and when ‘the weather is sweet’..and when it ‘made u want to move your dancing feet’..but noooh) for the record: it’s 5.11am now.

They say men cant multi-task as well as women..i can attest to tht..haha..i study with my zen micro turned on..connected to my hifi..listenin and singing along to whatever random songs it plays..and my mind kept driftin away..not a good way to study(yes i know)..but keeps the boredom away..and tht’s not even multi-taskin..it’s like just dual-taskin..more like duel-taskin..as in a fight between me and the exam paper come december..haha..hey i just invented a new word.."duel-tasking" : the act of getting ready for a duel with your exam paper"

i remember another "older-new-word" someone came out with: a "sighboard"

..i wish mah brain’s like a sun-dried sponge..with knowledge as water..and me brain will just keep on sucking ‘em ‘water’…and in december i’ll just have to dig my 2 hands into my head..take out mah brain..and douse the ‘flame’ (the flame being the exam paper)..

3.6 is driving me nutzz…

"misery likes company"..i like the way tht sounds..i’ve been tryin to find the meaning..so i can write it down..staring out the window..it’s such a long way down..i’d like to jump..but i’m afraid to hit the ground…

…and i cant write a love song..the way i feel today…i cant sing no song of hope..i’ve got nuthin to say..life is feelin kinda strange..since u went away….i’ll sing this song to you where ever you are…

…as my guitar lies bleeding in my arms….

not bout me..bout this blog ; )

it’s almost 7am again..and the garbage truck cant gostan..coz it’s simply..not here…just bas sekolahs passin by outside. the sampah truck came by two days  ago..i think. (arr..read the first or second post..haha..) i’m in this wonderfull state of mind…but i cant brainfart on a piece of paper..(arr…go search for some mr. boyb interview).  how can 3 lil’ birds SAY "this is my message to u…" mr marley must be high on weed when he wrote tht song. now: updating stuff, experimenting with mah online organaiza (rememberthemilk.com) …check’d out mah blog..still wondering how the hell can i change the blog pic….after sooooo many months..realized..ppl posted comments(!) didnt think anyone would really read this..haha. coolnez. pi patel said : the lower you are, the higher your mind will want to soar. yes i’m on the ground floor..my mind wants to soar to the first floor…to mah bed. he also said : it is important in life to conclude things properly. only then can you let go. well..seems like i have to conclude this properly..or else i cant let go..hmm. to conclude things properly : this is actually a post for the posters who posted comments…an acknowledgement…if u’d like to call it tht..or just a mindless post by someone who should’ve slept 6 hrs ago. yes..back to my nocturnal days..yes..back to my mental ways. [you dont have to read this if u dont want to..just felt like exercising mah fingers ; )  ]

Saw Nigella Lawson’s cook show on tv around 8pm..the discovery travel and living channel (hmm..i prefer the name "travel and adventure"). I like the stuff she cooks, most of them look delicious. It used to be that cook shows are all about someone dressed-up like a chef (i mean yes, they are chefs but they don’t really dress up on tv like those chefs in hotels,etc), and then with properly measured and decorated ingredients they start to cook. But like those on the travel and living channel..they dont really measure the stuff they use..it’s more like a "just follow your heart" kinda thing..y’know. And cooking becomes fun. It seems easy to cook something nice, you see them on tv..just throw in a few ingredients..and walla..something delicious (or atleast they look delicious through the tv). Makes me wanna try to cook something sometimes..but i’m too lazy to start. And then the ingredients..bay leaves, garlic-infused olive oil, and stuff like that. What are those? Can i get them here? Well..yea, i can try looking in the supermarket. Erm..too much hassle. Hungry? I’ll cook, but it’s gotta be something easy..instant  noodle perhaps? 

7am..the garbage truck beeps as it backs up and i start my day thinkin about what i’ve thrown away.  could I push rewind? the credits traverse, signifying the end..but I missed the best part could we please go back to start? forgive my indecision..

this is getting fun (this blog thingy)…it’s 7.39am in the morning..it’s time to hit the bed soon..i’m being nocturnal again.

The first entry for the bloggie. Was watching the champion’s league..then decided to log on to friendster. something’s new in here..the blog and chat function. nice. Guess i wont have much to say here…i’ve thought of creating a blog before..but i had nothing to say. Who would be interested in reading about the things i do..or the books i read. This could be the beginning of the end of my bloggie entries.

ciaozz…